train of thought? hmm

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Thursday, December 20, 2012 12:28 PM

There are tons of things that i want to say, to write, to express but all just remains in my mind -.- This past two weeks are emotionally horrible. And each day is just getting worse. i think it's kind of a reminder for me that 'yes, anis, something is wrong! find it, solve it! hmmm...

but no matter how 'serabut' i am, how 'serabut' my day went on, he taught me to always say alhamdulillah for today, for every second, so, here i am, with emotional hurricane, humbly said ALHAMDULILLAH, thank you ALLAH for everything T___T and also not to forget to say Istighfar (maybe all those keserabutan because me/you/we are doing wrong things and we have to repent again!)

just now, we had just finished celebrated Alyaa's birthday. very happening maa :)) parties are just great. never once in my life, before i got here (egypt) that i've known or celebrate such event :P thanks to Aimi and Mila for that great mee bandung and also tasty ice cream cake and oranges and custard :) Hamdulillah..

Has been awhile since i last skyping with mama abah :( mentang2 dah ade viber, memang tak skype langsung. ''tapi kan selalu je telefon'' mana sama tengok muka dengan dengar suara je. :( 
Rindu dengan mama abah. Kalau telefon mama, Memang wajib dapat booster dose utk study, emosi, dan mcm2 lagi.. i am very grateful to have them ;) Alhamdulillah ;)

okay.. typing this somewhat calms me a lil bit.. only this for now.. i'm still unable to write something fruitful for your reading guys.. sorry for that :(
Assalamualaikum and good night ^^

Consider this before you give up

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Monday, December 10, 2012 8:05 AM

: Marc and Angel Hack Life :

1. You never fail until you’re satisfied with failure. – Failure is not falling down; failure is staying down when you have the choice to get back up.  Sometimes you have to fail a thousand times to succeed.  Which means you haven’t really failed yet; you’ve just found a bunch of ways that don’t work.  So don’t get so hung up on a few failed attempts that you miss every new opportunity coming your way.  All of your ideas that don’t work are simply stepping stones on your way to the one idea that does.  As Winston Churchill once said, “Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.”   

2. What you have learned is what’s important. – Life always offers you a second chance – it’s called tomorrow.  But this second chance doesn’t mean anything if you haven’t learned from the events of today.  You have to acknowledge your troubles but gather strength from them, and laugh at your mistakes but learn from them.  Getting a second chance in life is about giving yourself the opportunity to grow beyond your past failures.  It’s about learning as you go and positively adjusting your attitude and efforts toward future possibilities. 

3. Tough times are just part of life’s natural balance. – Life lives, life dies.  Life laughs, life cries.  Life gives up and life tries.  And life looks different through everyone’s eyes.  In fact, who you were, who you are, and who you will become are three completely different people.  And as you gradually grow beyond the person you were yesterday, keep life's challenges in perspective.  Hear life’s harmony, and notice the delicate balance.  Realize that life is like playing a grand piano.  The white keys create your happiness and the black keys denote your troubles.  But as you go through life’s journey, remember that the black keys also create music. 

4. Pain helps you grow. – Sometimes things must change so you can change.  Sometimes you must break a little so you can get a peek inside to see what an awesome powerhouse you are.  Sometimes mistakes must be made so wisdom can be earned.  Sometimes you must overcome heartache so you can begin to follow your heart again. 

5. Success is a way of living. – Don’t let your struggles become your identity.  Not everything in your life will go as you expect it to.  This is why you need to drop expectations, live in the present, and go with the flow, rather than against it.  Remind yourself that it’s perfectly okay not to be perfect.  Ultimately, success is not something you achieve, it is what you learn and how you grow as you deal with the realities of life – it is a way of living and being.

Hikmah Of The Day

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Sunday, November 25, 2012 2:50 AM

this feeling, it's like high school all over again. i made my choice to stay where i chose and i'm comfortable with it. it might be wrong, it might be right but that matter does not lie in either of us. let us wait patiently for the day where we shall reap our life's work after a lifelong struggle.


because we will not be asked, "what happened?"

we will be asked, "what did you do?"



once the curtain parts and once the ghaib becomes visible, there is no taubah. too late. the door of taubah remains open as long as the ghaib is ghaib. but the moment the ghaib becomes visible, the moment we see the angels, the door of taubah is closed.

so when is the time to make taubah?

now. right now.

right now as we are sitting here, make taubah. sincerely and seriously make taubah and ask Allah SAW, "O Allah, forgive us for what we had done. we did it without knowing, we did not do it because we are rebellious against You, we did not do it because we want to irritate You or anger You. we did it because we are weak, we did it because we are enslaved to our nafs and syaitaan. O Allah, we make taubah. insyaAllah, O Allah help us, we will not go back to those things again no matter who said what."


Yes and No

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Tuesday, November 20, 2012 10:53 AM

 Excerpt from the Book "You can be the happiest woman in the world"

To every Muslim woman who is content with Allaah as her Lord, Islam as her religion and Muhammad (Blessings and Peace be upon him) as her Prophet.

To every girl who follows the path of truth, who carried the message of sincerity.

To every teacher who strives by means of her words to convey knowledge and values, and has purified her soul.

To every mother who brings her children up to fear Allaah and to follow the Sunnah, and makes virtue dear to them.

To every woman who is burdened with worried and sadness.

Rejoice and receive the glad tidings of a way-out at hand, the care of Allaah, a great reward and expiation of sins.


Yes to your beautiful smile that sends a message of warmth and friendliness to others.

Yes to your kind words that establish friendship as permitted in Islam and dispel rancour.

Yes to acceptable charity that brings happiness to the poor and feeds the hungry.

Yes to sitting with the Qur'an, reciting it, pondering its meanings and acting upon them, and repenting and seeking forgiveness.

Yes to remembering Allaah a great deal and praying for forgiveness, persisting in dua'a and offering sincere repentance.

Yes to raising your children in Islam, teaching them the Sunnah and guiding them to that which will benefit them.

Yes to modesty and hijaab as enjoined by Allaah, which is the means of self-protection.

Yes to the friendship of good women who fear Allaah, love Islam and respect high values.

Yes to honouring one's parents, upholding the ties of kinship, honouring one's neighbours and caring for orphans.

Yes to reading useful, interesting and beneficial books.


No to wasting time in trivial pursuits, and love of revenge and futile arguments.

No to giving priority to money and accumulation of wealth over one's health, happiness, sleep and peace of mind.

No to seeking out other people's faults and backbitting about them, whilst forgetting one's own faults.

No to indulging in physical pleasure and giving in to every whim and desire.

No to wasting time with shallow people and spending hours in idle pursuits.

No to neglecting physical hygiene and cleanliness in the house, and being disorganized at home.

No to haraam drinks, cigarettes, narghile ("hookah pipes"), and all foul things.

No to thinking of past calamities and dwelling on past mistakes.

No to forgetting the Hereafter and neglecting to strive for it, and to being careless of what will happen in the Hereafter.

No to wasting money on haraam things, being extravagant with regard to permissible things, and falling short in acts of worship.

#Selawat $Jumuah

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Friday, November 9, 2012 3:16 AM

this is taken from facebook~ from akhi baihaqi hassan..


Syeikh Yusri hafizahullah pernah menerangkan selawat kepada Al-Habib Rasulullah SAW dengan penerangan yang cukup indah. Kata syeikh Yusri,

"Perbanyakkanlah selawat kepada baginda SAW. Ini kerana, Selawat adalah amalan yang DITERIMA oleh Allah walaupun dilakukan dengan hati yang LALAI kerana HUBUNGANNYA YANG KUAT dengan Rasulullah SAW, sedangkan Allah tidak akan memandang kepadamu jika kamu LALAI
dalam melakukan ibadah yang lain."

Tambah Syeikh Yusri lagi,
"Allah telah menciptakan MALAIKAT KHUSUS untuk mencari orang yang berselawat kepada Rasulullah SAW di setiap tempat, masa dan keadaan. Malaikat ini akan menyampaikan selawat kepada baginda SAW yang masih HIDUP, di kubur baginda SAW. NAMA kamu akan disebut kepada baginda Rasulullah SAW. Adakah kamu tidak merasa bahagia jika namamu dan kata-katamu disampaikan kepada baginda? Bahkan, baginda SAW akan terus menjawab selawat itu dengan menDOAkan kamu."

Allahumma Solli 'Ala Muhammad
so, apa lagi? moreover, today is Jumuah :) let's shalawat banyak2 ^_^
Allahumma Solli A'la Muhammad~

I have learnt...

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Wednesday, November 7, 2012 9:06 AM

I have learnt that loneliness is not so bad as many of us perceive sometimes its indeed best to be introspect, to check, to plan, to ponder, some battles of life are to be fought on our own..
without anyone’s help or aid.

I have learnt that the most powerful thing that make or break mountains is faith ...what makes few people so remarkably great is their determination and faith in them.

I have learnt that among all the keys to success, the most important are perseverance and sustainability...getting on top of peak is easier than remaining on that level.

I have learnt that what we choose today builds our future for tomorrow...our choices reflect what we truly are and not really our capabilities and skills.

I have learnt that life always shows us wonderful’s easy to get distracted but what is difficult is to see right through those false appearances.

I have learnt that it is not skin or looks that make someone beautiful but it is kindness, compassion and love in heart that makes someone so beautiful.

I have learnt to love myself, to be myself and to be grateful of what had been given to me throughout my life. ^_^


night pray ~

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Monday, November 5, 2012 5:34 AM

Praying at night is only for Allaah's chosen few!

"Do not commit sin during the day, and He will help you to stand before Him at night, for your standing before Him at night is one of the greatest honours, and the sinner does not deserve that honour."

- Ibraheem ibn Adham (rahimahullah) -


so, are we among the chosen people? T__T

never forget these two in your life ; Duaa and Repentance.
may ALLAH forgives all our sin


The feeling when you just cannot translate the storm raging inside your brain or the heartache inside you, when words simply fail you but there is so much feeling deep in your heart and you silently believe it is known even when you could not find the exact words. #Du'a 


i miss Australia :(
Ya ALLAH, tsabatkan mereka di jalan-Mu.  

muhasabah chenta :((

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Saturday, November 3, 2012 10:32 AM

"Belum tibakah waktunya bagi orang-orang yang beriman, untuk secara khusyuk mengingat Allah dan mematuhi kebenaran yang telah diwahyukan (kepada mereka) dan janganlah mereka (berlaku) seperti orang-orang yang telah menerima kitab sebelum itu, kemudian mereka melalui masa yang panjang sehingga hati mereka menjadi keras. Dan banyak di antara mereka menjadi orang-orang yang fasik."
[al-Hadid, 57:16]


"Apabila mereka dilemparkan ke dalamnya mereka mendengar suara neraka yang mengerikan, sedang neraka itu membara, hampir meledak kerana marah. Setiap kali ada sekumpulan (orang-orang kafir) dilemparkan ke dalamnya, penjaga-penjaga (neraka itu) bertanya kepada mereka, 'Apakah belum pernah ada orang yang datang memberi peringatan kepadamu?'"

[al-Mulk, 67:7-8]

Air mata mengalir laju...

mujahadah mujahadah mujahadah :)

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Friday, November 2, 2012 12:32 PM

Ya Allah
Rebahkanlah tubuh ini dalam keampunanMu, perlindunganMu, penjagaanMu dan tetap dalam keimanan serta ketakwaan kepadaMu.

Ya Allah
bersihkanlah pikiran dan hatiku, agar diriku bisa semakin dekat denganMu. Dan bisa menjalani hari-hariku menjadi lebih indah, bahagia dan semangat.

Ya Allah
lelapkanlah diriku dalam syukurku kepadaMu dan bangunkanlah di sepertiga malam agar bisa menjalankan sunah utamaMu.


mujahadah itu perit.
sebab syurga itu indah.

kata nak masuk syurga
tapi tak sudi nak susah2 kat dunia. 

segala apa yang ALLAH tegah
semua untuk kebaikan diri.
ALLAH tahu itu sebab Dia lah Pencipta manusia itu sendiri.

sudah-sudahlah menyombong di dunia.
sudah-sudahlah berlegar2 dengan maksiat itu.
jom istighfar banyak2. setiap detik. kita istighfar yuk.
lazimi zikrullah. susah awalnya sebab kita tak hayati makna zikr yang kita lafazkan itu.

tapi, di situlah teruji mujahadah kita.
mujahadah untuk menahan diri dari melakukan maksiat.
mujahadah untuk istiqamah dalam amal2 kebaikan.

yakin! ALLAH itu Ar-Rahman Ar-Rahim.
takut bila fikir kemurkaan, azab ALLAH.
lega, rasa bersemangat bila fikir Rahman dan Rahim nya Allah 
walau berjuta kali jatuh futur, jangan putus asa dengan rahmat Ilahi.
Bila ALLAH rahmati kita, maknanya ALLAH redha kita.
Yuk lagi, kita mohon, rayu, rintih, buatlah macam mana pun..
sampai ALLAH rahmati kita, redhai kita.
sebab itu lah penyebab kita dapat masuk syurga :)


i wrote this for myself.
i want to be able to read it again.
to remind myself again.
what i have said, and have it done already?
life is a mysterious path.
the mystery of the future scared the hell out of me
but knowing that i am not alone to pave my road
calms me. :)
i want to keep being a believer.
in fact, i want to be a true believer :)
and i pray that ALLAH guides my way, yours and all :)) 

p/s: pesan seorang ukhti, cari satu zikir yang boleh bg kasi sentap hati! contoh; zikir ALLAHU AKBAR (ALLAH Maha Besar), bayangkan kebesaran ALLAH.. selamat beramal dengan seikhlas mungkin lillah only :D


Timeless Lessons Everyone Learns Eventually.

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Tuesday, October 16, 2012 7:57 AM

By: Marc and Angel Hack Life


Just a few timeless life lessons we all learn on the road of life...

1. Beauty comes from within. - You will never be beautiful like me. You can only be beautiful like you. One does not become beautiful by trying to be beautiful. One becomes beautiful by finding beauty in what's already within.

2. Pain has a purpose. - Pain doesn't just show up in your life for no reason. It's a sign that something in your life needs to change. This change takes strength. But remember, it's not that those who are strong never get weak in the knees, or that they never gasp for a breath. It's that while their knees are shaking, they force themselves to breathe and to take another step.

3. There are right people, and wrong people, for you. - There are fake people, and those who are true friends. There are people who take the heart out of you and those who put it back. You have a choice of who to spend time with. True friends have an honest heart, and will go out of their way to help you when you need it most. Stick with the people who never let you down and keep their promises. You can't fake that.

4. What you focus on grows. - Do not let the negativity wear off on you. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Promote what you love instead of discrediting what you dislike. When you choose to focus on the things you love, you end up finding more joy and more love in life.

5. What you don't start today, won't be finished by tomorrow. - There are seven days in the week and someday isn't one of them. Ask yourself if what you're doing today is getting you closer to where you want to be tomorrow.

6. Sometimes taking your own advice is hard. - You know what to do, but you can't seem to accept your own good judgement.You've said the same exact words to others, but listening to your own words is a struggle. That's why friends are priceless. Because sometimes you just need to hear it from someone other than yourself.

7. You can't live your life solely for other people. - When writing the story of your life, don't let someone else hold the pen. You've got to do what's right for you, even if the people you love disagree with your dreams. Live your life so that when it's time to ask where the time went, you can answer: “It went to joyful moments of self-discovery, to my search for passion, to doing work that felt like play, to standing up for what I believe in, and to exploring this beautiful world with an open heart.  My time went to living MY life!” 

8. Forgiveness is the first step to recovery. – Sometimes we don’t forgive people because they deserve it; we forgive them because they need it, because we need it, and because we cannot move forward without it.  So cry, forgive, learn, and move on.  Let your tears water the seeds of your future growth and happiness. 

9. Your beliefs become your reality. – What you believe has more power than what you dream or wish or hope for.  You become what you believe.  Even though you cannot control everything that happens, you can control your attitude toward what happens.  And in that, you will be mastering change rather than allowing it to master you.   

10. Success is rarely easy, but always worth it. – Those who have achieved their dreams know that life is about willpower and persistence.  It’s about hanging on to hope when your heart has had enough, and giving even more when your mind and body want to give up.  Yes, each step may get harder, but the view from the top is priceless, and well worth enduring the journey to get there.

Picnic & Gathering 2.0

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Saturday, October 13, 2012 3:00 PM

Alhamdulillah for today :)
i really had a great fun at Hadiqah Al-Azhar.. Jazakunnallahu khair akhawati (awkward a little bit to say it, yelah, dah lama tinggal and already getting used to say thank you millions times buddy :P ) anyway, today's fun was unforgettable, and it left deep impression in my heart. Just like the emcee has said before, we hope to gather like this again in Jannah.. I felt like crying :( huhuhu... InsyaALLAH.. I love all of you lillah.

We gathered because of Him, we love and we hate because of Him, and only for Him. Suddenly, i remembered home. i remembered my mother, father, adik2.. and i am really thankful to Allah because i was born in that family, i was raised by my parent and not 'others' (bukan mak ayah yg lain) and i hope to be anak solehah, which is of great valuable asset for my parent, insyaALLAH. (mahu jadi tiket untuk mak ayah masuk syurga)

What are the lessons learnt today?
AHHH.. i forget to mention the theme;  Protect The Ukhuwwah, Grow The Fikrah (P&G).. it also stands for Picnic and Gathering 2.0 :)

1) the chosen ayah for today's gathering is Surah Al-Anfaal, verse 63. okay peeps, open your quran, read it and make some tadabbur. it is awesome! how ALLAH The Almighty describes to us that only ALLAH can unite our heart and had we spent all that is in the earth ( bygkn semua yg ade kat bumi, uncountable kot.. subhanallah), we could not have done it but ALLAH.. ALLAH is the only one who has the power to change people's heart and to make us stand as one :)

2) love and hate someone because of ALLAH. if you hate, hate the bad deeds, not the person him/herself. Nobody is flawless. we all make mistakes in life, learn to forgive and to accept someone just the way they are. I too am not the best person to comment on this matter, because i too sometimes get carried away with my feelings and let it get the better of me... tapi,mujahadahlah dengan diri sendiri.. istighfar bnyak2 when you have hasad dengki or perasaan mazmumah lain dalam hati towards other people (contoh, feel superior, better, way more beautiful, way more soleh/solehah than others, stingy, annoyed dengan orang lain for no reason and etc).. beware! 

3) Appreciate the tie of ukhuwwah (especially ukhuwwah defined by faith) :) Nurture your love towards your usrahmates, friends, family, society and treat them with full love and care.. (this one also, no full comment..) Just walk the talk okay?? :))

Always tajdid niyyah lillah only.. and make istighfar a lot for all the mistakes done, and also always pray for ALLAH's forgiveness :)

p/s: for all my childish mistakes i am sorry, people may think i am strong and brave, but only the closest ones know how vulnerable this human being is :')

egypt; post-arrival~

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Thursday, October 11, 2012 8:58 AM

peace to all :)

finally.. i'm back in egypt. it's already my eleventh day over here. Post-arriving, i'm experiencing my first homesick feeling, and it is really terrible. i felt so lonely, i don't know how to describe it.. yeah, i know i still got my bro with me, but it just won't go away.. i kept picturing my parent's face and my bibigurl :( she once asked me why did i have to study so far? duduk aje dekat UNISZA which is very near to our house. i just laughed and said.. i've gone this far. i'm not going to stop halfway. it's okay, absence make the heart grow fonder.. duduk lama2 kat malaysia, asyik gaduh aje pulak..

true. that is my first time.experiencing homesick~

maybe the excitement of first time travelling abroad override other feelings :) and as the time passed, and i am already in my fourth year, i come to really appreciate the presence of my family. when it's time to go back, it is very hard to leave them. But, that is the price that i have to pay~ and mama abah i would do well for this year.

okayyy.. i am still adjusting.. there are so many things to be done. i plan to settle all the problems as soon as possible, what with the house, renewing my visa, taking money from the bank, buying all the stuffs for the room, calling ammu to repair all the new damage recently arise.. and to catch up with the syllabus. i've got plenty of leisure time actually as our classes mostly start at 12 oclock in the afternoon and finish at 2 p.m. i just don't know where to start plus i am lazy. haha.. 

what else? hmmm.. i made myself to sit in front in every class so that i can be more focus and i force myself not to sleep in class.. cuma tadi, terkatup sebentar (because i eat a lot in the morning :P) thank you arif for all the tips. thank you for being with me at hard times. listening to my sobsobs, offering advice (though i've to push you for that), calling me just to ask how my day went :) only ALLAH can rewards you for your kindness.. now, i'm fine and feeling good as ever, alhamdulillah :)

so, that's all for now.
i'll just leave you with this saying..

"A change in behaviour begins with a change in the heart"



Whining here and there :P

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Saturday, September 22, 2012 8:59 PM

hey there :)

well, i am not doing anything special today. just lazying around at home, waiting till the time comes for me to go back to Egypt.. while others are in full spirit in their study! hmmm.. i am not studying back at home and this is terrible. i mean, the requirements for being a medical student is to always stick to the books! Right? in other way, you don't stop studying and take a long break. a little break, maybe. like you've been studying for hours and taking a little break ( a short nap..) is simply irresistible AND acceptable it is!

As for me, it has been a long break. 3 months without filling my head with medical stuffs, either revising the old subjects or seeking for new facts! THE WORST i've become! 

i bet everyone else is in high spirit for the new semester.. what's with all the updates in the group page~ Good for you all. For me, i need to restore all the energy needed for another fight, another long year to come, fourth year as a medical student to be more specific! Hopefully i can get through another year with peace and joy and succesfully.. amin :)

they have started with forensic, it's got to be related to corpse, death and what else? yet to find out... oh, another thing, hihihi *giggle* i am completely ensnared with this new malay drama; ADAM & HAWA, i get to watch Aaronnn!! and nadia neesa's (is this the correct spelling?) acting ade umph! She fits the role :) i have already read the novel and have one. i have always admire Aisya Sofea, the novelist, and i have never missed buying her novels before. but after i went to Egypt, i kind of lose some interest in malay novels.. regardless of that, i still love her writing. that's the reason why my music background is this song.. OST Adam & Hawa = Muara Hati = nice isn't it? hehehe

what goes around, comes around.
what you give, you get back.

well, just reflecting. reflecting upon yourself is monumental to cultivate a better, more refined person in you :)

p/s: i still remember my promise. will update about it soon :)
p/ss: update lah new episode cepat2!! grrr!!

sense of time

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Thursday, September 6, 2012 8:03 AM

Baru selesai intai-intai balik status2 lama di FB. *tarik nafas panjang* tersedar, betapa tak maturednye saya dulu. too childish~ hmmm..
rasa macam sekarang lebih 'lembut' dari dulu.. hehehe :)

seriously, when i read back all my comments, rasa macam nak sembunyi bawah katil~
kasar sangat!
so, i would like to take this opportunity to apologize to all my friends ( mana2 komen yang harsh, ada tersinggung atau terkecil hati ke).

i've got only 23 days left before i depart for egypt :( sedih nak tinggalkan family, especially, my baby girl, Aisyah. Well, takpelah, absence makes the heart grow fonder, right? Yelah tu~ :) InsyaALLAH, kalau panjang umur masih boleh bertemu lagi. 
[Achik; you pulak, the bestest bestie, sissy :P] , so, takyah lah jeles ngan adik eyh..

Year 2013, i officially will be a fourth year medical student. Rasa macam baru semalam berkumpul di KLIA untuk my first departure to Egypt. Tahun depan dah masuk tahun klinikal. Tinggal 3 years / 2 years and a half for me to finish my study. I still can't believe that i hold this title as 'a medical student'. Hopefully, i can be a SAFE doctor, a good one, and lurking in the back of my mind is to be the genius one :P in the future insyaALLAH.

Tahun ini ramai senior, junior complete half of their deen :) Yelah, masing2 dah bertemu jodoh masing2. Mabruk alaikum, Barakallahulakum till Jannah. Saya? Tak tahulah~
Dalam hati memang gatal bukan main :P Rasanya tak salah pun untuk saya fikir soal ini kan? Hey, i'll be turning 22 next year. Sesetengah orang memang anggap masih mudalah nak fikir soal nikah ini. Vice versa untuk saya. I don't want to marry late. Abah dan adik pun cakap orang perempuan eloknya kahwin awal :) Kita boleh merancang, tapi ALLAH yang menetapkan. Maybe, i don't live that long to be married, or maybe i am marrying late, not the latter i hope :P 

For year 2013, i set a few rules for myself to be followed, as a guideline throughout the whole year, in order to accomplish my mission. FOCUS, FOCUS, and FOCUS! haah, temanya fokus. Berdasarkan tahun lepas punya muhasabah, i lose focus due to some matter. So, tahun ini, FOKUS kene 100 percent lah. insyaALLAH.. plus other necessary effort for success. Being hardworking, proper eating, sleeping, exercising ( kene lose weight yang 4 kali ganda naik setiap kali balik malaysia :P).

i'll just leave you with this quote from Sis Yasmin Mogahed :)

'' Turn every fall into a rise, by refusing to be conquered. Refuse to let despair win. Let nothing own you but God. That's where hope never dies. No matter where you are, or where you've been...that's where hope never dies. ''

nota i : saya tau tajuk tak related langsung dengan post dibawah. do i even care? nope! :P

Every moment you have a choice, regardless of what has happened before =)

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie 1:22 AM

Everything you know is based on what has already happened in your life. And yet, your only influence right now is over things that have not yet happened. The things that have already happened have gotten you to where you are right now. What you need to be concerned with, however, is where to go from here.

Because you're so intimately familiar with your own past, it may seem that you have no choice but to continue moving in the same direction as before. But that is not true. Your future does not equal your past. Right now, there are infinite number of paths which you can take. The one you're currently on is only one of them. Any of the rest are available to you.

If you're completely satisfied with where you're going, then by all means, keep on going that way. But there is no reason in the world why you have to keep following that same path if it is not bringing you full and lasting fulfillment. 

Every moment you have a choice, regardless of what has happened before. Choose right now to move forward, positively and confidently into your incredible future.


I know you're having a hard time right now. And i deeply regret myself of not being able to be by your side, to console you and to motivate you. i feel responsible for you. i can't stand watching you 'suffering' from afar. well, this 'suffering' that you are going through is a test of faith. It is part of life and it comes in many shapes and ways :) Believe in ALLAH that puts you through this, He is there for you, for me, and you are going to make it. i believe in you, so you got to believe in yourself!

So, be strong! for yourself, for the future that awaits :)
I love you, always and always will..

Medical terms (Just For Laughs)

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Wednesday, August 15, 2012 9:51 PM

Docs...... take note :P


Artery -- The study of paintings
Bacteria -- Back door of cafeteria
Bowel -- A letter like A.E.I.O.U
Caesarean section -- District in Rome
Cat scan -- Searching for kitty
Cauterize -- Made eye contact with her
Colic -- Sheep dog
Coma -- A punctuation mark
D&C -- Where Washington is
Diarrhea -- Journal of daily events
Dilate -- To live long
Enema -- Not a friend
Fester -- Quicker
Fibula -- A small lie
G.I. Series -- Soldiers' ball game
Hangnail -- Coathook
Impotent -- Distinguished, well known
Labor pain -- Got hurt at work
Medical staff -- Doctor's cane
Morbid -- Higher offer
Nitrate -- Cheaper than day rate
Outpatient -- Person who had fainted
Pelvis -- Cousin of Elvis
Post operative -- Letter carrier
Protein -- Favoring young people
Rectum -- It almost killed him
Recovery room -- Place to do upholstery
Secretion -- Hiding anything
Seizure -- Roman emperor
Serology -- Study of knighthood
Tablet -- Small table
Terminal illness -- Sickness at airport
Tibia -- Country in North Africa
Tumor -- An extra pair
Urine -- Opposite of you're out
Varicose --Located nearby