Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Sunday, September 11, 2016 1:19 AM


Once you keep score, you lose.
Life is long, life is hard. If you keep score, it's another weight on you.
Just give when you can. Else the score will go against you anyway.

When given the chance, opt to be a good and kind person.
We don't always get chances and often it is too late to practice this muscle.

Just like eventually my leg and arm muscles will get weaker and weaker as I age, because of lack of exercise, so will the giving muscle unless I exercise it.

Giving is the most selfish thing you can do. Hence the amazing benefits you can derive from it.

It's OKAY.

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Thursday, August 11, 2016 8:31 PM


Kindly noted, this might cause excessive diarrhea and vomiting, so please please take care okay? For those with weak hearts, no ECGs, defibrillator or medications provided. Kindly excused yourself, you know your self better kan? kkkkkkk.. 

This letter is for you la, whoever you are. (will there be one :/)
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Hello LOVE.
I know you haven't found me yet.
But I just want to say it's alright.

You don't have to find me anytime soon. I know it seems like I don't want you right now, but honestly, I would be lying if I told you I never seek you in coffee shops, in crowded places or even in the silences of my mind.

But I know you would like this too.
We're still young. We're still itching for freedom and independence. We want to live.
It's alright not to find me because I am still working on myself.

I still need to find who I am and what I am here for. 
I still need to do what I love and pursue them passionately.
Only then when I have already accomplished so much can I begin to fall in love.

I don't know when or where we'll meet. I just know why.
We will meet because we are fated to. 
Even if I do not know what you look like, I know that I will like you.
It might take a while, but I know I'll do.
Because I know that you'll be familiar; your pulse will match the beatings in my heart.

So until we're both ready for one another, I hope that you won't give up too soon. 
I hope you will wait for me.
So for now, don't worry about me and go accomplish what you have to.
Have fun. Find your desires. Seek greatness. Explore and discover the mysteries of life.
And when you're finished, when you're ready to find love, come find me.
Come find me and tell me all of those stories, all of your life stories.

By this time, I will be ready. I will be ready to face love.
I may not have worked everything out, but I will be able to say I deserve you.
By this time, I will have realized my purpose, my reason.
And I will have understood the reason for love, for us meeting.

So trust me sweetheart, it's alright. Take your time.

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Some words need to be crossed. Penulis takut dia akan mengalami *curse diarrhea*. 
Typical yeoja. What do you expect kan?
Kalau tak suka, bolehlah minta diri .. hikhikhik.

Bye. Ini adalah saja saja kita nak bersihkan sawang di sini. 

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Saturday, May 14, 2016 3:17 AM



Saya sayang emak.
Untuk emak, saya mahu berbuat apa pun.
I wish the best of all this world could give.
Then I become greedier.
I want you to be happy here and hereafter.

Terima kasih emak untuk segalanya.
Thank you for opening up to me.
Thank you for crying and showing me your weak side.
You remind me over and over again
that this world is not easy to live in.
That there are peope who hates you and there are fake people.
Thank you for always cooking for us.

I want to be able to treat you when I become a doctor.
Am I failing to do just that?
I want you to keep being healthy and can play with your grandchildren.
I never wanted you to leave me.
Because you are my safe harbor.

If I have you, I even thought that it is fine if I do not get married.
Because I want to keep taking care of you.
But am I already doing a lousy job at that?

Emak, thank you for always forgiving us.
Thank you for taking care of us.
And now it is time for us to take care of you.
I love you mom, forever and always

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Monday, May 9, 2016 3:29 AM




There is nothing lost in apologizing. 
It makes us realize how important the other person in our life is and that we are willing to give up anything to make them happy.
Even after that they don't realize and be stubborn, we can't change them but we can change ourselves to be a better person.




Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Thursday, May 5, 2016 7:43 AM


You make lists in your head about what you want in a lover, like brown hair, blue eyes and a sweet voice. A sharp mind and a soft heart, a sense of humor that actually makes you laugh like you mean it. This and that.

And it's all bullshit. Complete bullshit. Because people aren't lists. At all. 
And I've always wanted to be the person who made someone realize that.
I want to come across someone with a list in their head that is nothing like the person I am, and I want to show them what they didn't even know they even looking for. 
People who think they know what they want are just fooling themselves. 
Nobody really knows what or who they want. Not until it's right in front of them.


- Marianna Paige

lama tak update! heh.

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Thursday, April 21, 2016 11:23 PM


HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII..

LONG TIME NO SEE. Ahhhh.. Rindunya mahu mengarut sengsorang. Biarlah ada orang baca(atau tidak sebenarnya), because this is one of the medium for me to get crazy untuk kesekian kalinya.

So, what's new?
1. I have graduated from medical school! Yey. Can't believe I've made it this far. Jadi sekarang, kerjanya saya jaga pokok bunga ros emak di rumah. Setakat ini masih hidup lagi. Tapi mungkin, mungkin lah bakal menyusuli pasu tepi yang dah kekeringan. Ha ha. Tangan saya tak hijau, nak buat macam mana. (Tapi saya siram saja ek)

2. I'm missing Egypt right now. I miss going to university, sitting and hearing lectures. I miss pillow-talking with my best buddy. I miss gossips sessions with the girls. I am bored sitting alone at home. Of course I have house chores to tend to, adik-adik yang bakal exam tahun ini which requires me to pay particular attention.

3. And, last but not likely least, today is your birthday! Happy Bornday Nur Hazirah Mohd Azlan. You are truly a gem. :) My partner in crime. Thank you for being my bestest friend. I learn a lot from you. I will always pray for your success, your happiness. Semoga cepat bertemu jodoh, cepat dapat kerja, berjaya dalam segala yang kau impikan. :') Thank you for being you. 

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//MONOLOGUE//
Is it hard to be in a long distance relationship?
Why and why would you choose to be in one?
But sometimes you can't help it.
Your job, your career needs you to be apart from each other.
Is it possible to keep the love alive when you are far away from each other?
What with the hectic schedule. 
Then it all comes down to understanding and trust.
Then, it is the same as what you have said before..
If the trust is strong in each other, then isn't that is the greatest love.

Bruce Lee -- Life changing lessons.

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Monday, February 1, 2016 9:25 AM


1. Be soft like water.

"Notice that the stiffest tree is most easily cracked, while the bamboo or willow survives by bending with the wind". 

"Be like water making its way through cracks. Do not be assertive, but adjust to the object, and you shall find a way around or through it. If nothing within you stays rigid, outward things will disclose themselves. Empty your mind, be formless. Shapeless, like water. If you put water into a cup, it becomes the cup. You put water into a bottle and it becomes the bottle. You put it in a teapot, it becomes the teapot. Now, water can flow or it can crash. Be water, my friend.

2. If you truly love life, don't waste time because time is what life is made of.

"To spend time is to pass it in a specified manner. To waste time is to expend it thoughtlessly or carelessly. We all have time to either spend or waste and it is our decision what to do with it. But once passed, it is gone forever."

3. Do not pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one.

4. Life's battles don't always go to the strongest or fastest people, but to the ones who thinks they can.

"The successful warrior is the average man, with laser-like focus"

5. To specialize in one thing is more powerful than to try 10,000 other things.

6. There are no limits to what you can achieve. There are only plateaus, and you must go beyond them.

"If you always put limit on everything you do, physical or anything else. It will spread into your work and into your life. There are no limits. There are only plateaus, and you must not stay there, you must go beyond them."

7. A goal is not always meant to be reached, it often serves simply as something to aim at.

8. If you spend too much time thinking about a thing, you'll never get it done.

9. Knowing is not enough, we must apply. Willing is not enough, we must do.

10. Always be yourself, express yourself, have faith in yourself. Do not go out and look for a successful personality and duplicate it.

prattle-twaddle-chatter 2.0

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Thursday, January 28, 2016 4:35 AM


Dua tiga hari ini aku sangat sedih. Emosi aku lagaknya macam orang putus cinta.
Bangun pagi rasa sedih, tengah breakfast, dinner semua nak sedih, mandi pun nak sedih.
Tengok betapa teruknya keadaan aku kan.. ok ok, exaggerate pula rasanya.
In conclusion, there is this sadness feeling that is so overwhelming.

Dan sebenarnya aku tahu saja sebab apa aku sedih.
Tapi seakannya aku ini lumpuh, tak boleh berbuat apa-apa.
It is not that I can't, it is that maybe I refused to do so. Bahagia dalam kesedihan. 
Hahaha.. jangan risau. Aku belum gila lagi.

Sebelum ini aku pernah tulis pasal kegilaan aku pada certain drama.
And my current obsession is Healer.
Sebenarnya, bila dah tengok banyak kali cerita itu, biasa saja. Normal lah, itu semua penceritaan drama, bukannya realiti.
Itulah, bercakap, menulis senang, tapi yang merasanya hati. Itulah, orang dah kata, jangan bagi makanan hati benda-benda yang lagha, yang susahnya diri sendiri juga. Padan muka (kasi penumbuk satu!)

I think (and I know it) that I am a hopelessly romantic person.
I like how the background musics really fit the scene.
And those are some sad songs. They touch that romantic side of my heart.
And without knowing, my tears flow freely whenever I heard the songs. 
I am really screwed up, am I? (oh no!)
And so that is why I am so sad this past few days.

Mungkin juga sebab aku period sekarang ini.
Agak malap cahaya keimanan. Bercahayakah? *senyum sedih*
Kita ini lain daripada manusia lain. Memang lain.
Kita ini kan Muslim. Bukankah segalanya berbeza bagi kita kan?
Tujuan hidup kita pun dah berbeza, that is mengabdikan diri pada Tuhan yang satu.
That is why whatever I am doing right now, does not reflect of who I truly am, who I supposed to be.
Now I feel sad because it feels that I am so pathetic.

OK. enough for today. I just want to write something to get off this overwhelming feeling.
Time for my reflections!
For isn't that the rule, fall down seven times, stand up eight?
The true mark of a Muslim is that of infinite persistence!





WRITE

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Wednesday, January 27, 2016 2:45 AM


Write when it rains
Write when it shines
Write on a restaurant's table mat after a boozy dinner
Write in your old book, that you know you will never read again

Write when your tears can't fall
Write when your life feels like you are rolling a boulder up a hill
Write when you want to feel, but instead you swim in emptiness
Write when your fingers are about to fall from exhaustion

Write when you find your first grey hair
Write when you are alone and trapped by your restless thoughts
Write when you are surrounded by many, yet you feel lonely

Write, Write, Write...

Write because it is the only expression of your free will
Write because it is free, because we were all born to write
Write because it takes ink and a paper and that's about it
And if there's no ink,
write with your tears, your swear, your blood

Write with your finger on the bathroom mirror after a hot shower
Write as if it's your only way out of yourself and into yourself
Write one word, write a poem, write a story, write @#$%*$#, doodle a heart, an orange

Write what others have written
Write so no one can understand, not even you
Write because you were born to do so
Write because it is your voice that the world needs to hear
Not only hear, but read; for it needs to be printed for your children and your children's children to know you; unabashingly you, shamelessly you, beautiful you


Jessica Semaan

obses Healer

Posted by Mademoiselle Sophie , Monday, January 25, 2016 10:21 AM


Ohmai
Sisi gila aku kembali memunculkan diri.
Dah lama tak segila sebegini.
Hahaha..

I never thought that I could feel the exact same feeling again.
Jujur aku bukan minat sangat korean drama.
And only few dramas that moved me into tears. *bajet*

The first drama I've truly tumpahkan air mata *pekerjaan bodoh, tapi buat juga :P* adalah winter sonata. Masa itu baru darjah-darjah aku ini. Banyak kali lah jugak aku ulang tayang cerita itu. Tak jemu rasanya. Makin besar, minat aku pun beralih arah. Dan selepas itu, tengok saja drama lain, tapi efeknya tak pernah to the extent yang aku akan tengok banyak kali.

But this time. Another one came along.
Healer. 
Storyline, background musics, casts, acting, directing, action scenes, semua superb.
Tapi dalam banyak-banyak reason kenapa aku tak boleh move on dari cerita ini adalah.. jeng jeng jeng..
Million-watt smile ji chang wook. Dan charming park min young.
Aku memang suka sangat karakter cerita yang macam ini.
Lonely, ala-ala love deprived, mysterious, besides good looking lah kan..
Cheerful girl, full of life, brave and cute.

Sepertimana aku tulis di atas, aku ini sedang gila. Dan kegilaan aku agak sukar dibendung apabila mencapai certain level. Hahaha. Maafkanlah ketidaktsiqahan aku ini.
My type of storyline.
My favourite actor. Feature menarik pada ji chang wook adalah senyuman dan mata. I'm melting thousands of times! *maafkan saya bakal peneman, saya lagi sedang gila. Harap faham kalau awak baca suatu hari nanti*

Tapi biasanya that 'excited' feeling  akan surut after a few days.
Harap kali ini surut cepat-cepat sedikit. Tak larat nak layan perasaan lama-lama.
Penat tau tak penat. Tapi nak buat macam mana, perasaan adalah apa yang kita rasa.
Susah untuk dikawal. Bukan boleh turn on/off ikut sesuka hati, sesedap rasa, bila-bila jua. 

Sudahlah. Aku nak pergi menyambung tengok Healer untuk kali yang keberapa entah. 
Kan aku dah cakap aku tengah gila sekarang. Haha..

Iye aku tahu, cerita ini dah lapuk dah, dah berzaman dah.
Aku selalu begitu, outdated! hahaha
Orang dah move on dengan cerita lain, kita baru tergila-gila. Hahaha.